Birthdays and Sunburns

Today is my 31st birthday and I have to admit that I'm not happy about it. I had a very difficult time with turning 30 last year and more than likely every year that brings me closer to 40 is going to be even harder. I think most of my problem is that I feel like I wasted so much of my 'younger' years. My twenties are a blur, I don't remember much of those years because I went through some of the worst times of my life before I turned 26! It's way too much to go into, but let me say that if it had not been for the Lord finding me, I don't even know where I would be, or where my kids would be right now! I was in misery and it took finding my husband, and then, of course, finding God to bring me out of that horrible place!

I know that if I didn't have these things in my life I would be having a much harder time entering my thirties, but the fact that I'm alive and living for God makes me extremely happy and I can deal with the inevitable process of aging. It just makes me sad to know that I threw away so many years of my life on the useless things of this world! I thank God that He found me when He did.

Yesterday (Monday) was an absolutely HORRIBLE day. Anything and everything that could go wrong...went wrong, so I'm sure that has a lot to do with my grumpiness today.

So it's my birthday, I'm 31, but I feel better than I've felt in a very long time! I've been discovering more and more streaks of gray in my hair....my crow's feet are getting more prominent...and I must admit that I'm starting to feel the effects of a once fractured lower back, especially when it's rainy outside....but other than that I feel great! I've heard that after 30 it's all downhill, but I refuse to let that happen!